Emmetsburg: Sixty-four

Blue. The wind picked up, coming straight out of the north. It was a cool wind, kicking up dust and made the deepening shade of the barn almost uncomfortable. A string of little white clouds grew as a breath along a front across that previously unblemished sky out beyond the lonesomeness of the General Store. It’d be raining by morning, adding a certain urgency to all this. Perhaps it was that urgency that helped wrestle loose the question John had been mulling for some time now.

“What do you figure this is all about?” he asked, his gaze drifting along the distant horizon.

“Nothin,’” The Indian’s reply was unequivocal.

“Nothing?”

“Grand scheme? Nothin’ but what you wish it to be about.”

John thought to reply. He almost said something smart, more because of the absolute sense of emptiness that whole idea carried. He almost said something, but the idea was just too much to dismiss or react too quickly to. Instead he let the moment slip away in solemn silence. Strange, he thought, that the idea that life really amounted to nothing in the end was both disconcerting and liberating all at once. He looked up at the old Indian.

“And fate?’

“Told you, it’s all about perspective. Want to have any say in your fate, got to change your perspective, that’s all.”

John nodded thoughtfully and climbed to his feet. His shirt had just about dried by now. His belly groaned. John remembered he hadn’t eaten since the day before. He reached into his pocket and found two bits there. He figured it’d be enough for a gas and a cup of coffee. John rubbed the back of his neck.

“One more question.”

“Told ya when you sat down, questions don’t cost nothing.’”

“Let’s say a fella knows the time and place of his own death, and he knows that something good will come of his death, but if he didn’t die those good things wouldn’t happen. If that was you, just speculating here, would you go to that fate.”

Without hesitation the man opened his eyes and looked up at John. His eyes were the most amazing green, like some sort of polished stone. His reply almost made John feel foolish for its simplicity, and selfish for its immediacy, as if John had completely overlooked something fundamental and unquestionable.

“Wouldn’t you?’